diary secrets .

Why do I suddenly feel so miserable ?

2009-11-06T05:28:00.000-08:00

You make me speechless .

I want to know if you love me .

You gave me the signs and feelings .

When I'm with you , I'm lost for words .

Words like , I love you .

Okay , now is a different subject .

"Another day has gone

I'm still all alone
How could this be

You are not here with me

You never say goodbye

Someone tell me why

Did you have to go

And leave my world so cold .. "

If only he could live again , I would treasure every moment of happiness he gave to us ..

I love you , MichaelJackson . Rest in Peace .

Bored STIFF.

2009-10-26T23:03:00.000-07:00

Okay , seriously .
I"M OFFICIALLY GETTING VERY BORED.
hais , why do we still have to go to school when there is practically nothing else to do ?
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD ..

I'M BORED

FINALLY .

2009-10-09T03:31:00.000-07:00

Hey hey
Finally can blog .
EXAMS ARE TRYING TO KILL ME .
Cannot take it sia .
SS paper sucks , so difficult .
Maths was alright ...

Today is a rather headache-ing day .
First , duh , exams ...
The I went home to bathe and change .
Then met Crystal at library .
Walked to the AMK central there to pei her pay for something.

Oh , FREAK-OUT news .
I saw Mr Loh and some other teachers .
I was like laughing all the way , damn funny .
Went library and study until head almost burst ( I was studying CHEMISTRY and POA)

Gtg study now , byes xD

I'm Back .. for now ..

2009-06-27T04:39:00.000-07:00

Sorry , now then post .
My parents dun allow me use luhs , no choice .
Yeah !　：　next week is CC3 camp !!!
Booo ! : School is starting and I'm SICK !!!

LOL .
Money crisis .
Homework crisis .
Weight crisis .
Result crisis .

CRAP . i'm dying .
okayy , need go do my work le . bb for now ((((:

STRESS & SORRY .

2009-04-08T04:56:00.001-07:00

hey , I know , havent blog for very longlonglonglong .

today , had drama . totally screwed up .
I cant take it , I suck-ed .
But I've learnt . It takes time for one to improve . there are no failures , only learning experiences .
Cant imagine I got so tight up that I cried luh .
Thanks Jie , Sean , Christina , Lisa and Ms Chan for consoling me .
Hey , I'm really sorry if my screwing up is pulling everyone down .
I'm so so so so sorry ~
I will do my best to improve .. .. 7 days left , exactly a week away ..

I really pray that I wont screw up on saturday , it's like almost the actual actual full dress performance.
With the make up and everything . And Shalyn is cutting her hair , soooo cool . Look , Saddist ! Sorry , didn't mean to be mean but I have a feeling the impact on saturday will be damn cool and powerful . Wish Us Luck ! (:

POA test today sucks , chinese lesson was fun although I kinda got punished in the beginning . Hahaha . It was my fault , wasnt paying attention .

Didi at P5 camp . Not fair lor, they can use phone ...

hais . soooooooo f-ing tired .. .. But need to find the three damn recipes for FNN .. ..
Soooo , off for now .
Byes .

heehees .

2009-03-27T07:15:00.000-07:00

heys , shall post today and now .
but it will be rather short .. .. ..

Okay .. .. wasn't in the best of moods this morning ..
Was damn pissed , but , I WAS at fault too .. But the teacher is one freaking itrritating person .. Can just anyhow accuse people one sia ..

HOMEWORK IS MANY !
tired enough liao luhs .. ..
All give homework at the wrong times ..
Suppeeeerrrrrr sian until after school ..

Met DaJie , JieJie and Niece kou zhong de Jacky .. (?)
Well , I didn't bother talking to him [stranger..?]
Okay , I used to be super friendly de luhs ... Dunno why like that ..
Maybe cos' he's a guy .. ? Wierd ..

I was glad you apologised .. very glad (:

He apologised to me leh .. I'm damn happy luhs .. Not being sarcastic , I mean it ..
I was like sooooo angry with him in the morning .. because he suan people and compare results and say smarter than me (wth .. ?) , but wo men hao le ...
Hope won't quarrel again lors xD

Want to sleep liao xD
(Inner Voice : Liar , going watch videos and wait for mummy come home luh ... Where will sleep so early ? FRIDAY leh .. )

Me : Hehhehs >.<

Byes for now (:

WTH .

2009-03-19T21:26:00.001-07:00

freaking hell .

I'm not going to blabber nonsense anymore . Cos it doesn't matter to me now .

THIS IS GREAT .
Yesterday , we went to ACS Barker to do our DRAMA SYF rehearsal at their auditorium , also our actual venue on the day , 15 April 2009 . hehehehe . The feeling of being on stage was tiring but yes , inspiring and enjoyable . Since it was technical runs , it was double the tired-ness , double the job of doing better as well. ( Mrs Crothers was there ) .

Before we headed there ,
Amanda, Eugene and Dennis came over to swim (or should I say, play water ?)
Then mommy trapped me at home till I only could join them later on .
Recieved a random call from Sean Teng and Kenji telling me they wanna come over .
I went like " Er.. Okay ?"
they claimed they were bored stiff .
So all well ..
Then they came and I was OUT .
'Broke free' from home and played with them .
-Random playing- until StupidSean threw the float on my head .
Everyone was persuading Kenji to enter the pool but he went " not today .. "
Then got leg cramps , luckily it was minor . Thanks Dennis and Aki for noticing me (:
Sean was sooooo Mr Nice Guy and went to help someone who -rammed into a pole and was unconcious -
Sean now the hand bandaged and he can randomly just can't move from neck down .
But GREAT JOB yesterday , friend (:

Rehearsals were great ,
THANK YOU TEACHERS FOR DONUTS AND FREE MACDONALD MEALS xD

After rehearsals , we headed home and actually we all planned to go for mignight drinking ( macdonalds luh ! >.< ) but didn't cos everyone needed to ZZZ .

HAD A GREAT TIME GUYS .
LOVE YOU ALL LOADS <33

THATS ALL FOR NOW . BB .

i'm confused .

2009-03-16T03:16:00.000-07:00

I don't blame you .

I don't bother .

I don't wanna bother .

Leave me alone for now .

I need time to think .

Drama was cool today , sorry dramarians , I wasn't focusing .
the library competition was cool ( no food ; wasn't even related to FNN) .
So seh now
I wanna cut hair .
so curly , my fringe like broom .. xD

I was so sian .
Thanks Aki Jie for cheering me up . ( &. SUDDEN hugs , listening ear and stupid actions that made me laugh )
Thanks Lisa . ( for the listening ear and hugs )
Thanks Eugene . ( for the hugs )
Thanks Sean . ( well , you cheered me on bah [?])
THANKS DRAMARIANS ! ILY GUYS ! YOU GUYS ROCK !
Oh ya , did I mention Kenji played this lame game with me called "Kiss.Shoot.Marry" when we each gave each other three choices of people to either kiss , shoot or marry . It was damn funny . Chaongin , Jacinta , Kenji and I had a good laugh in the MRT .

Sorry that I hated you
I realised that you are a rather nice friend
Just toooooooo straightforward and blunt with your words .
xD

Ending here , byes .

I've Had Enough

2009-03-14T04:21:00.000-07:00

I'VE HAD ENOUGH.
I was so stupid .
I gave too many chances .
I was too soft-hearted .
I kept it to myself .
I deserved it .

Seriously , I'm sorry for all those that I screamed at . Sorry Jacinta , I didn't mean it .
I wanna thank those who comforted me , thanks so much .

IF you never cared , don't pretend to . Maybe I don't understand you . Maybe they were all excuses . People told me and warned me , but I didn't listen . Maybe I'm sensitive , I dunno .
I dunno what to say now , my mind is so blank . You made promises to me , but why make it when you were going to break it ? Hais . Why do I ALWAYS have to give in ? I really dun understand , why you get angry so easily , I also dun understand . I'm sorry , but maybe from now , we should keep a distance ...

I was so upset , I was crying .. Thanks Mr Neo , Michelle Chen and Crystal for accompanying me . Thanks a lot ..

Today was fabulous . It's Drama SYF showcase ! I love Deyi Drama !!
It was very funny , really love showcase ! And also , TWO THUMBS UP for the other schools , you all did great . Although I gave some comments , doesn't you all weren't good , just not very prepared , actually , we weren't prepared either , was shivering in the auditorium because it was so cold .. and also as our turn got closer , shivered even more ..

That's all for now . (:

back to square one

2009-03-10T03:28:00.000-07:00

Back again . I'm addicted to games and storybooks . Well , hols are around the corner and hopefully I will be able to stop after that ; addicted to Twilight storybook and Sims 2 game .
Ahaha , but I'm really happy that twin was there to remind me not to get too into it . THANKS TWIN .
Okay .. not knowing what to blog about . Wants to the watch twilight the movie .. hais ..
Shall end here , later got char siew rice and then TUITION . eh ...
bibi (:

boredom.

2009-03-05T04:48:00.000-08:00

I can't imagine life being anymore boring then nowadays , say , school life ?
BORED !
I dunno what to say sia !
I'm very bored . Other than writing stories , RPG-ing , and singing , I think at least some studying . I didn't go out leh !!! (other than with my parents )
MUMMY , I WANT TO GO OUT !!
I dun wan to die of boredom and get flooded my textbooks , workbooks and worksheets .
WILL DROWN DE LEH !!
But my mum is rejecting my persuasion to go out , again and again and again ~~~
MR.NEO ! WHERE ARE MY CAMP PICTURES ???
I wait for him outside the staff room for so long , he only send me one picture . Oi ~

I'M SO BORED I'M SPROUTING GIBBERISH ON MY BLOG .
HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

lastly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAKINAH ! 0503 .
one more one more , HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIJIAO ! 0603 .

good night , xoxo .

3 days can't beat 2 & plus years ?

2009-03-03T00:34:00.000-08:00

Okay , sorry couldn't blog yesterday cos I'm actually forbidden to use the com . But all well , I shall blog . suddenly, cannot get use to the school life sia , very easily get tired , and when teachers ask us questions , feel like answering MAM YES MAM sia ...

Today , not much . Early morning met Mich Wong and Jiexin then walked to school together . I really dun like PE . Although I can lose weight but wth , run until got stitch is bad .. Then go back , Ms Djie .... DOTS . she only going to be our 'cher for one week . lol . went through FNN and SS in boredom . I was actually slacking and writing my chinese novel . too bored . then went through the day in boredom until I realise I got second highest in class for maths . Elvin , as usual got the highest . Jiexin , Jeremiah, SJ and me got second . HAPPY . for those who didn't do very well , JIAYOUS . Mr loh say that we behind 308 only le mah and he said that we all IMPROVED AS A WHOLE le mah . So 305 GOGOGO ! WE can do it de !

Ohya ..
MAVIS REVIVED IN CAMPUS SUPERSTAR !
good right ? Damn happy for her sia , sorry couldn't go for live de . Dad dun allow .
No offence but HS uses her mother too much le ba . one or two times maybe still okay . three times leh , and somemore the revival round . seriously , personally I dun feel it's very fair as it's like trying to get sympathy points lor .. I pity her for not having a complete family though , very sad leh ..
anyways , JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU ! :D

please luh , never go for sec 3 '09 camp then never go luh .
Dun act like you got go can .
you know the 5 success principles meh ?
you know what is success claps meh ?
we never tell you , you will know meh?
other people never go also never act act .
what's your problem ?
tolerate you damn long liao lor .
keep telling myself you are a good friend
but sometimes it's really hard ..

T-I-R-E-D .

2009-03-01T02:55:00.000-08:00

today was boring . early morning had to wake up and go for mass plus cathecism class . I dunno why but cat class is starting to become boring , seriously .

dad brought Jarett and I for lunch then we went to Toa Payoh POPULAR bookstore to look for my history workbook . bloodyhell . again out of stock . then order from the guy and shall collect it some other day when it arrives at the Jubilee's outlet . then papa brought as to AMK central and we brought some stationeries and book-ends . Walked into M1 store . I-WANT-LG-COOKIE! but the lady told me need to wait for 1 year before I can upgrade and buy . then my idiot brother laughed at me , cos I cannot buy . xin zhai le huo . stupid one leh .

then came home . SLACKED . created new emails . add me hor, msn . lady.blackheart@live.com . hehehe . okay . gotta go slack somemore then later watch wu lin da dao . bb (((((:

Camp Conquest ; Live!Operation .

2009-02-28T04:57:00.000-08:00

Hehheh ; new bloq and going to blog about sec 3 camp . It was fuuuuunnnn.

25th Feb 09 - First day
woke up rather early cos' was actually excited about camp . hahaha . went to school and waited at foyer for Jesscca . Shermin arrived and waited with me. Suddenly, got one whole group of people in black asked us where was the canteen, I actually pointed the direction for them in 'fear' .Then Jacinta, Michelle Wong and Jiexin also came and we waited together . Waited for quite long , end up , she was already upstairs . ahaha . saw Sherry they all and chatted with them for a while . as usual , morning assembly then we took our bags and went to the hall to get ready for camp . Captain Ridwan gave us all final briefiing before we got to know our Platoon Mentors [PMs] and got to know them a little better after that in the bus on the way to the campsite. Our PMs were PM Vivien, Malik and Raymond. Reach liao hor, we all got assigned to our beds in the dormitories. LOL . the guys' dormitory was like all opened with only a plain shelter. poor them . hahaha . All of us gathered at second tier after getting ready. Got news that we needed to do BMT . sucks but rather fun . Played the slippery slope, minefield (Gosh.) before having lunch. but we were all in sand . the Enciks come and purposely pour water on the areas without grass, making us all muddy. then we played WaterTank and one other game, oh erm, forgot the name of the game, really glad that everyone worked hard together as a class for every activity, 305 rocked ! then at night got passing out parade. then we sleep ..

26th Feb 09 - Second day
Woke up at 4:30 , some girls were chatting while some wanted to sleep , in the end the PMs chased us back to sleep. woke up at 6 again then got stand-by-bed . kena sabo to be bunk IC . got rather nervous . then we needed to do 430 success claps as we got 43 mistakes . 1 mistake 10 success claps . GREAT JOB , DEYI for enduring and doing your best in the many success claps ! then went to second tier for breakfast. the carrot cake was disgusting but we managed to finish it . then we drew our faces with balck and green camo and well, they were all smudged by our perspiration . Jesscca and Suyee felt unwell and rest-ed at the shelter while we did our second activity for the RECCE PATROL . PM Vivien selected me as leader and I was rather happy yet reluctant cos I know at some way or another I'll be autocratic and my friends will dislike me , and I didn't want that . Accepted everything and there was this activity when Encik Jack was the 'MAMA' shop person and tried to bribe us for our journals with coke and tidbits but we all refused it , well done 305! (: Then later was the GREAT RAID and 305 won the game with 14 battleships and 5 territories ! Yippee , three cheers for everyone, especially the few who contributed a lot in the game ! the Encik Sham told us two stories about the way people deal with failure and it was soooooo funnyyy . laugh and laughed nonstop. then PM Vivien selected Jiaxing, Gabriel, Vivian and me to go for some leadership thingy along with 4 schoolmates from each class when we wrote down our goals in life and held them in our hands in 90 degree position for 1 whole hour . Thanks for the encouragement, schoolmates and Captain,Enciks and PMs ! although I felt it was meaningful and memorable but hand was aching .. hahaha. then got CO night when 305 had to plan everything . Great job, guys !! All our other schoolmates performed great too ! the PMs and Enciks were like soooo high too . then some of us bathed and went to sleep.

27th Feb 09 - Last day [ Sad ]
I was feeling kinda sad when I woke up as I dunno if our class will still stay as united when we go back to our original school days and I might never see our PMs , Enciks and Captain again luh .. Nevermind , I trust 305 with all my heart ! Early morning , thought got no stand-by-bed, sa-ka-li got sia , luckily dun need do success claps . then we all gathered outside our dorms and did area-cleaning . then went downstairs to have breakfast . After that , Encik Jack , PM Ivan and one more PM that looks like PM Ivan started entertaining us as Encik Sham keep on playing music to like them improf the 'performance' . Everyone was laughing nonstop , cos they were uber-cute luh . Then later PM Ivan came up with a game called copycat and he saboed Encik Sham and 305 saboed PM Raymond . hahaha , everything was damn funny . Then we had graduation parade and we all were really happppyyyyy ~ we took class photo and everything . got graduation bandanas as well . then later some of us cried and PM Vivien cried also .. then all the PMs , Enciks and Captain Ridwan did push-ups and asked us for permission . felt damn sad . we all keep on asking them to carry on and recover whereas there were some people distubing them . Reached school and did our final drill and success claps and everything ended and I cabbed home , too tired .

To 305 NEOPETS ! :
Thanks for the pass 3 days . Thanks for the encouragement , thanks for the endurance and the perfect teamwork . Love you guys man ! I'm sorry if I did offend some people during camp or in the past . I hope we all can be great friends and one big family ! Thanks for everything ! All for one , One for all ! NEOPETS ! GO GO GO 305 . Loves and loves . xoxo .

To all the instructors in camp (PM Vivien, Malik and Raymond , Enciks and Captain Ridwan) :
Thanks for the advices and the encouragement . You've all added an experience in my life that I shall remember. The 5 success principles are all so true . Thanks for teaching me how to deal with failure in life . Choices have consequences , If I can't , I must , there are no failures only learning experiences , do it once do it fast do it right and All for one , One for all . Thanks !

shall end here . gotta go make my forget any unhappiness and be a whole new CherieKwek! support and help me okay ? Thanks everyone ! (:
nights for now (: